LOST INSIDE

LOST INSIDE


i am feeling lonely
concrete buildings surround me.
i search in vain and pain why is my heart crying

i am scared
worried of my deeds indeed
i tell no one of sinister monsters deep within me

i need someone
to tell my woes and anguish
i look around who isn't busy mind idling

i once dreamt
of love, kindness of motherly care
i left it at home when my parents left with death

i am searching
but my filled wallets tell no joy
i wonder if this paper is actually satan's ploy

i look at you
and you and you with glittering eyes
i feel so sad that you are creating to plagiarise

i think slowly
with my fingers clenched in fury
i am a mad man that the world disowned speedily

i smile at myself
people all glance without looking
i walk away so as to spoil their sympathy

i know now that
i know nothing truly
i realise feelings sometimes transcends activity

i beg you
not to tell anyone who dares not ask
i ask questions which are answers in disguise

i speak to
no one who speaks to others
i can speak to myself in silence amidst others
i am lost inside
like stars in bright daylight
i existed without exiting exciting pride

i tried it out
silence, silence, silence
i know no other relishing peaceful medicine

i tell no lies
winning, earning have no pleasure
i can't live when chosen leaders measure

i smell roses,
flowers all free at the park
i stage dramas in my head inside the dark

i feel happy
all this are lessons to be laughed
i am happy to be breathing and to be alive